Session 3 - Transfers

This is a wrong place. I don't mean that, what is it? Different.

Are you getting this down? I'm not sure if you're aware of the- Oh you are? Great. Great. The finger thing, too right? How nice. That's nice.

I have moved house! I'm here in a new city which is grey and blue and has flags on it. Now and- I don't think we need to go into that in agonising detail, really. I don't believe that it would be beneficial for me- Oh you do? Well, okay then, new doctor.

See, the funny thing, the funny thing about this place is that, you know, that there are lots of people watching me now. Not moving. Just looking. Stop that, with your eyes. Is there something on my jacket? Oh, I see, okay I see now. Basically, right, those other ones who aren't my new doctor, my probation officer, sorry about the arm by the way, the nurse who pushes the trolley, and my seven new friends that are there "for my protection" are- hey, you are good at this, new writing-things-down-person. What is your name? I am Fidget.

Do you like animals, I'm Not Allowed To Tell You? I do, my favourite one is- Oh you're right, I got distracted. There are new people here, and the room I am in is shiny, and white. Like white tile. And these gurneys you have are much kinder on my arms, so thank you. I have been learning about manners and oh yeah. There are new people here. My new doctor says that they want to learn about me, which makes me Blush. There isn't much to say, really, new people, so...

Are you writing things down? I thought only I'm Not Allowed To Tell You is allowed to. "Making notes"? Like music? They must be clever. No, I'm not just being obtuse, thank you; this is a new place and I am still learning.

I am here because my heart was broken. And in my grief I went down the Path. The Path was dark and scary and made me 'act out' and I- Yes, I am getting to that, and- no, I am going to tell you how I feel. I felt that- why are you behind a window? I don't smell that bad, do I? Eh? Eh? See, that was a joke. You're writing that down, are you? Credit me with that, okay? I saw one of you smile, and now, as a healthy person, I will smile back.

Oh, you seem to have stopped smiling. Aaaand you're being led away. It's okay, it's okay; shh, shh.
Dry those eyes, dry those glassy, terrified eyes. Those eyes, a pearlescent window to your quailing soul.

Those eyes... Shh, shh.

I have been told to avoid this trail of thought "Or Else". I believe this to be sensible.

But serious times now, everyone. It used to be just reaching distance, and you guys hardly know me.  Is it because of what happened in... Yes, okay, I understand. I'd just to be kept abreast of these things in future. Can I get back back to my new house story?

What do I mean by 'act out'? You were there, Probation Officer That's Confidential, you saw the- I know, and the- Oh, for "evidence?" Is this about the conversation you had with my new doctor? I mean "too afraid to execute him" was a bit strong- Yes I did hear that, and the old doctor wasn't that bad, I mean, he had that little remote and everything, but I have come to terms with that now and he is-, sorry, was a good man.

Then why did I... Oh you mean when- well, that wasn't me. You have footage? No, no you see, it's very easy to interpret sound and video footage wrongly, well known fact. Well, mister I've-been-doing-this-for-years, what you saw was in fact me... There was a speck on his shoulder and I, I, was trying to wipe it off. Yes. With my teeth, yes. How do you do it?
Well the speck isn't there now is it? Tsk, the imagination of this guy!

The pressure of your eyes is making my teeth hurt, new doctor. I have recognised that I am becoming stressed, and I request that we end this session. Yes, I am sure. You're welcome, new I Can See You Are Actually a Lady doctor. But uh, some... Someone needs to come in here and get me. I can't, you know, move very much, what with the whole- yes, the straps.

Ah, thank you, three of my seven friends. Yes, I'm ready for the door to open- slower! Slower than that. Thank you. You know what, I managed to get both of my hands free before you got in! SURPRI-

<The subject was relaxed at this point and the session terminated>